I don't believe in bad days, but I think this one was one of the toughest I've had in a while. It started off with a freakout by KC and I could never shake the frustration from that. At one point during the morning, I almost had to walk out of the room because I was just so frustrated and on the verge of tears. I was scolding kids for little things that aren't a big deal. I was impatient and unfair. When it came time for them to go to gym (my break), I had to walk and get lunch because I was so overwhelmed and about to cry. It got a little bit better once I got back. I was able to make it through lunch and recess, which is a feat in itself. I think Holly could tell I was having a rough morning because she gave me busy work to do for the last half hour. When I left first grade, I thought I was getting better, but Course Coaching was a disaster and I ended up in tears as soon as the kids left.
I thought I had been handling this whole transition surprisingly well and I should have known that it would hit me at some point. I feel bad for my first graders because I was not a fun person to be around today. Tomorrow is our last real day at school and I hope I can handle it. We're doing a little celebration/treat before lunch tomorrow and I'm going to hand out the books and give Ms. Moulton her gift. I'm almost positive they have something for me, too. In Course Coaching, we're going to do a little bit of studying for their finals, but then I have books for them and I'm letting them pie me in the face.
I'm hoping that with a good night sleep and a new day, I can come with a new attitude. I feel like I completely wasted today with my bad attitude, which is a shame considering we only have a day and a half left. I hope everyone else had a better day than I did!
Attitude is a little thing that can make a big difference.
-Winston Churchill
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